I had two TIA’s before my major stroke. I fully recovered after both and was released from the hospital. I went home and went to bed because I did not feel good but attributed it to spending the night at the hospital, etc. It was that night that I had the stroke while at home in bed.
It was my first day of my job at a country club golf course. I was doing great and enjoying myself. The girl that was training me said it was time to call it a day after I just drove my first golf cart. We went into our bosses office. He just got done appraising me telling me what a good job I did. We were all standing. I had my Gatorade bottle in my hand and I had just finished a drink. The Gatorade was in my left hand.I tried to put the lid back on and the bottle slips out of my hand and it falls and It hits the ground splashing all over the place, I immediately try to pick it up and apologize as I was cleaning all day. I was told it was okay and I hear my boss say to my coworker for her to sit me down.
I just knew I could not give up…I had been in a coma for months…I was scared not to try…My mother and father and sister were there for me….my faith was what I had. I have now graduated from high school…learning to drive….I am very lonely…we live on an island and I was so active and involved in everything.
Biggest problem? SPEAKING! I have severe aphasia and apraxia. The communication center of my brain was affected by my stroke. So, speaking, reading & writing are very difficult. It does not effect intelligence but people don’t understand that. Most people treat me differently since my stroke and that is very frustrating. I have lost my independence. I can’t drive and that makes me sad. I am walking with the help of a brace and my right hand isn’t working the way I want it to but most of all I miss talking with my friends and family!
Accept help. Accept your new frailty. Give yourself a flipping break. Stroke survival is not easy and recovering from a stroke can be a multi-layered nightmare. One thing at a time. Knowing your weakness makes you strong. Launch a 100% full attack on depression. It’s real, it’s strong, and it’s normal. Everything will fall back into place. Give time, time. Life may never be the same, and that’s ok. Pray hard. Laugh hard. Reach out to others. You are not alone.